A Singer, Actor and Blogger. With a 9 to 5.

My apologies Nachos.. 😒 

It’s been a minute… I’ve been pretty active lately. Living the dream. Getting my life together and conquering fears.Β 
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I’ve mentioned in a previous post that 8 months ago. I’ve been performing with award winning artist, ToniSteelz. It’s been quite an amazing and interesting journey. Wait!!! It’s been freakin’ awesome!! πŸ˜ŠπŸ•ΊπŸ½πŸŽ€πŸ™ŒπŸ½ Those that actually know me. Know that I have this peekaboo personality. At times I can be outspoken and giddy. Then crawl into a box and hide. That’s what happens when I have to face a crowd. How the hell do you dream of becoming an entertainer and you get all scared? It’s been a work in progress and it’s coming to fruition. It’s truly amazing when you meet someone and that is understanding can see that you have a gift. That has faith in you and brings you on their journey. I’m working on my grandpa habits. Yes… I like to go to bed early. Especially, if I have to work early in the morning. If we have a show that night and I work that next morning. I’m flying home… Well, the last few times I’ve stayed and hung out. We do need to spend more time together. So Gramps, will let his hair down.
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πŸ˜‚ Personally, I need to not box myself up. When I’m going through issues. I’m learning, Chyle.
Can I truly tell y’all that… I’m so happy, thankful and blessed with everything that is happening right now!! It’s hit me!! I’m an artist!!! It’s time to work hard and bust my butt!!!
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Anywho, We’ve been performing all over the city together. We’ve been getting great responses. I’ll admit that I’m not powerful vocally. However, I’m getting there. I have a voice, it’s just that I’m finally learning to like it. I’m looking for a good vocal coach. So, whoever is reading. Please reply with info. 😊 It a great feeling when we walk off the stage. Folks walk up to you and tell you how great we all were. It’s like “We kicked butt!! πŸ™ŒπŸ½πŸ™ŒπŸ½” Our last performance. We ended the show differently than usual. We usually close out with, “They Don’t Even Know Yet”. Β Which we did but.. We usually end the song together. This time around, Toni introduced the band, Jelani Maleeq and I. Then she walked off. Then we were singing the hook with the band. Then Maleeq walked off. It was just the band and I. I couldn’t just run off behind him. So, I kept singing. Then we ended. Omg!! It felt good 😊 I felt confident and comfortable. It’s noticeable too!! I’m blessed and honored to be performing and becoming a family with them. ToniSteelz, is a phenomenal artist. I’m not just saying that, either. She’s a Hip Hop artist, an actress, a radio personality, does voice overs, producer, Β director and motivator. Wait!! A hairstylist as well. Jelani Maleeq, can sing his face off!! I definitely look up to him as an artist and a friend. I’m learning a lot from him. He’s a comedian too!! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ His singing can bring me to tears. He’s dope!!Β 
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ToniSteelz and The Steel Tonez “Jelani Maleeq and Chazz Anthoney “
We get along really well. We’re grown adults with a vision and don’t have time for nonsense. We’re go getters aiming high. We support each other and are a united front. The last few shows we’ve added a few artists. To perform with us.. The Infamous King Of Positivity “IKP” and Verse. Two truly amazing artists!! Each song has a message. You will leave with something. Hope y’all can come and check us out. πŸ˜‰
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Verse, Chazz Anthoney, Jelani Maleeq and IKP. We look like a Boy Band. πŸ˜‚πŸ™ŒπŸ½πŸ•ΊπŸ½ I love it!!
Things are moving pretty quickly with us. We have a bunch of shows lined up. Throughout the summer. It’s going to be a blast!! This is truly a blessing! πŸ™πŸ½ I’ll hit y’all with links for upcoming appearances. 🎀
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Come through and get to know us… We’re a fun group of friends.Β 
Besides performing together we all have side projects. ToniSteelz is currently working on an upcoming series. I don’t know if I can say too much at the moment. But I’m proud of my sis. πŸ™ŒπŸ½ Recently, she reached out to Jelani and I about having a role on the series. When I found out. I literally screamed!! We got the script. I must say.. The writing is awesome!! It’s a great script!! I read my part and couldn’t stop laughing. I would love to see my character go somewhere. He has potential. πŸ˜‚ We filmed a few scenes and it was a challenge. I’m kind of a sophomore at acting. So, I did mess up a few times. I had to keep going back and looking at the script. I’m looking forward to working with them in the future. I’m really hoping because it’s a great project. We chatted after we filmed. I’m working on not being so shy. I’m going to work on my craft. I’m honored to be part of an amazing project. I love my character a lot. Everyone was truly kind and supportive. There’s a group of amazing actors, writers and crew. I can’t wait to see it all. I’m hoping everything is a success!! It was a blessing. My confidence level is pretty high now. If folks are going to see and hear me. I’m on film now. I can’t be scared now. I’m only going up!! I’m happy as all get out!! I’m proud of myself!! I’m sure my mother is smiling down at me!! I’m Chazz Anthoney Cabrera. A singer, actor and blogger. Just living the dream.Β 
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Thinking about what’s next…Β 
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For upcoming appearances and events www.tonisteelz.com
Until next time.. Remain awesome, Live for you, Love Yourself and Say your prayers.Β 

A long way from yesterday.

It’s five months into 2017. It’s been a pretty good year thus far. I mean you have your usual, ups and downs. Then you pick yourself up and keep it going. As you get older. You begin to appreciate what is actually around you. I’ve learned that you can’t point the finger at anyone. But yourself because you allowed it to happen. Not to judge a person. Based on a conversation with someone. That so called “Put you on” about. Especially not by appearance. Because we all have flaws. Allow me to babble for a bit. I’m really excited that I’ve been reconnecting with my friends from my childhood. I must say we all look damn good!! ☺️ We grew up in an era when we had to come inside. When the light came on. In front of the building. Our parents would snitch on us, if we were misbehaving. Some would even get popped in front of everyone. We were kids.. We actually played on the monkey bars, handball, rope, skelly. My favorite was tag and skating. We all had. So, we were entertained. And don’t bring it back in the house. Because that was it. Of course, we would fight and instigate. But by the next day. We were back to normal. I grew up in Roosevelt Projects in Brooklyn. Known as RV today. It’s the fondest memories that you have as a child. From the ages of 3 and 12 they say you remember those most. It was just my mother and I. My dad would pop up from time to time. We went to church all the time. Back then all the cartoons went off by 12. So, sitting in church on a Sunday afternoon. Wasn’t too much of a struggle. πŸ˜‚ Today I appreciate those lessons in church. I do want to link up with them soon. It’s getting warm and everyone needs their asses outside. I left when my mom passed away. I was rather tough at first. I mean of course… losing a mother. That shit is a deep blow. It took me about 12 years after to deal with it. Today it’s not so hard. She’s proud of me. Plus I’m rather dope and living for me. But the idea of not seeing them again was catastrophic. For a while I came through from time to time. Due to me having family in the neighborhood. Slowly I just stopped. High school, work and marijuana did it. πŸ˜‚ Ages 13-17 was a total shit show. My moms gone… I’m trying to figure shit out. Who the hell I am. Getting pick on at home and school wasn’t cute. I was awkward, nerdy and was a total misfit. Everyone made it clear that I was. I was paranoid as fuck. I moved to another area. I can say it was a nightmare at first. Trying to adjust. I made a few friends there. I can count on one hand as well. This was not RV. That was home. But over at the other neighborhood I’ve grown accustomed and tried to fit in. I never really did. I felt more accepted by a few friends in school. Then we moved into a house. I call it the day I overcame πŸ˜‚. It was cool… I was always at work and getting plastered in midtown. I don’t know how I did it. Two jobs, school, drugs. Shit I would be lit as hell in school. I was focused and my grades were lit!!! Flash forward to today. I’m performing and recording. I’m writing this blog about myself. I love people more than ever. I’m a work in progress. I have a lot of amazing people in my corner. If something is bothering me. I’ll tell you directly. I try to stay away from gossip. However, when I’m told something. I don’t give a response. I just listen and know that I’m aware of you. I pretty much stay to myself. Because it can become overwhelming. Let me tell you about performing!! I would go to karaoke bars and have fun. I did try singing with a group when I was younger. It was always a dream of mine. However, I was quite the shy dude. Still am a bit. I always wanted to entertain. I just wasn’t confident enough. I would hear… “So and So can sing better than you.” “You can’t do this and that.” “You need to focus on school.” I’m like, “Damn… I’m not going to a should’ve, could’ve or would’ve.” I’m the controller of Charley. I do what I want. Last summer, I met a woman name Toni. We worked together on Sunday’s. It’s usually a mellow day. We were jamming to some music. She commented that I can sing. I laughed but it felt good. I didn’t know too much before that day. She said “We gonna work together.” I’m like, Huh? So, I went to visit her and she has a studio. I was all nerves I wanted to cry. But she kept encouraging me and her cousin IKP were telling to stop holding back. I couldn’t help it.. A month later, She says “Are you ready. We have a show coming up?” I couldn’t say no. That first show I’m shocked that I didn’t piss my pants. You knew I was nervous. I’m a lot more comfortable now. The whole team is motivating, encouraging, honest and talented. I’m so thankful for ToniSteelz. It’s now 8 months later and we’re doing big things. We’re going nowhere but up!! I’m extremely confident and proud of who I am. I’m sure my mom is smiling down at me. That’s all that really matters. You have to live your life for you. You are all you have at the end of the day. We have a show coming up on Thursday May 11 at 10pm at The Well in Brooklyn. See y’all there!!! Thanks for the love and support. Those that continue to inspire. Those that send well wishes. Those that have came to the show. My brother that tells me “It’s never too late”. Remember it’s you that is in control. No one else!!! I just needed to babble. The life of a stoner.